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Chapter 43 Bahar June 1982

Bahar goes to the after prom party at Madison’s. She is still wearing her frock and brings a present for Madison’s mother.

She drinks too much, thinks about Iran, her mum and dad, and vomits.

There is a few funny bits about looking up words in the dictionary “daisy dukes”

Chapter 44 June 1982

Bahar is rushed to hospital – Madison called the ambulance – she has alcohol poisoning.

While sitting by her bedside, Ellie tells Homa it was her fault. Homa had already guessed. She told Ellie they wanted the name of the translator (i.e. Ellie), but she never gave it to them.

Homa is not going to let anyone take away her spirit.

Chapter 45 July 1982

Bahar is fine. She spends a few days in hospital recovering.

Ellie and Homa go to the cinema to expel H0ma’s fear of the cinema – they see E. T.

On Homa’s last day, she gives Ellie the pink notebook in which she has written her mother’s recipes. She encourages Ellie to open a cafe/restaurant serving Persian food.

Homa is going to try to come back. She wants to be with Bahar and Bahar wants to be with her, but Iran is not the place for Bahar. She’s angry about the state of her country.

Chapter 46 2022 September (Last Chapter)

Ellie has a cafe. I don’t think they’re living in New York anymore.

Bahar is married with and 18 year old daughter. They are celebrating her 18th birthday.

In Iran, Mahsa Amini was beaten by the morality police and later died in jail. People (men and women) are protesting in the street.

Ellie, Bahar & Leily (Bahar’s daughter) see video on social media of the protestors and they see Homa.

Chapter 39 January 15th 1982

Bahar has arrived. She’s worried about leaving Homa.

She thinks it is only temporary – this government can’t last long.

She still likes Snoopy

Chapter 40 January 1982

Bahar’s first day of school.

Ellie is worried the other students will be mean to her (it is just after the hostage situation at the US Embassy in Tehran).

Bahar’s English is not very good.

Ellie is worried that she is the one with the evil eye – she now has Homa’s family just like she wanted when she was seven.

Chapter 41 February 1982

Bahar has a friend over from school – Madison. Ellie doesn’t like her.

While cooking a traditional Iranian meal, Ellie mentions learning how to cook it with Homa when they were seven.

Bahar knows all of the stories, Ellie’s shocked – she thought Homa would never mention her. She asks Bahar why she thinks her mother and her haven’t been in contact. Bahar believes it’s because Homa didn’t want Ellie to get into trouble – Homa knew she was being monitored.

Chapter 42 June 1982

Ellie and Bahar argue about a party Madison is hosting,

Homa comes to visit to see Bahar graduate. She calls Ellie ‘my friend’.

Ellie wants to confess, but she also doesn’t want to ruin the day. They visit the New York Public Library, the Piermont Morgan library and eat hotdogs.

Homa talks about the three things that saved her after prison; family, walking and reading.

Part 5

Chapter 36 1977 Ellie

The story has gone backwards in time.

Ellie and Mehrdad have just arrived in New York. Ellie is homesick and lonely. Mehrdad takes her to meet his colleagues and his boss. She feels inappropriately dressed. The boss is impressed by her English and suggests she joins the expat happy hour.

She meets Angela and they become friends. It is Angela who suggests she tries for a job at Bloomingdales.

The two couples spend news year’s eve together and watch Jimmy Carter drink champagne with the Shah. The Iran/US relationship is solid.

But I should have known that some friendships fracture and rupture beyond belief.

Chapter 37 1978 Ellie

Ellie’s mother comes to visit. They have a difficult conversation about Homa, her father and Uncle Massoud over frozen yogurt at Bloomindales.

Her mother tells her the country is in a terrible state and it will only get worse if the fundamentalists take over. They should stay and make a life for themselves in America, which they do.

Chapter 38 December 1981

We’re back to where we started.

Ellie calls Homa. She learns about Abdol’s death and how awful life is in Iran. Ellie is worried that people might be listening to the call.

Homa wants Ellie to host Bahar to get her out of the country. Niloo’s husband is in the foreign office and can organise the paperwork.

Homa is going to stay in Iran and fight for women’s rights.

Ellie and Merhdad agree.

Chapter 33 Homa 1979

January, the Shah leaves Iran.

February, Ayatollah Khomeini returns from exile (14 years).

The Shah’s political prisoners are released – her father is released.

National curfew and martial law are declared. People rise up and revolt.

The military declares neutrality. The old regime is now officially gone. The revolution has succeeded in installing a new hard line government.

Chapter 34 1979 Homa

There is a decree “women can go to offices, but they must be veiled”.

That ‘must’ gets to the women.

The women march for the freedom to choose. Some men intervene violently calling them whores and prostitutes. Other men stand with the women.

Homa is full of rage again – she beats up the man her threatens Bahar.

Chapter 35 1979-1981 Homa

The protests make no difference. Hijab becomes compulsory. The new morality police patrol for any breeches.

Iraq invades.

There is constant bombing.

Homa is active in the feminist movement and she knows she is a target again. She wants to find an escape for Bahar.

People are fleeing Iran. Sousan made it to L.A. – not the colonel, he is executed.

Chapter 30 1965 – 1974

We hear what happens to Homa in these years. How she finds her way back to herself.

The anger that filled me when I was first arrested no longer dominates. And I am no longer entirely made of grief. Through the walking, tons of reading, the presence of loved ones, even praying and the passage of years, I have slow climbed back into myself.

She slowly studies teaching and gets her first teaching job.

She mentions Ellie’s visit.

I very reluctantly, finally accept Ellie’s visit. Only because she’s Ellie. And even then, I’m worried sick she will get into trouble for being seen with me.

Maybe she doesn’t know it was Ellie?

Chapter 31 1974-1978 Homa

Homan starts teaching, she is very nervous. The girls ask if they can talk about protests with her.

Jimmy Carter is in Tehran and he has a champagne with the Shah. People are amazed – it is a Muslim country after all.

When she saw Ellie in the Bazaar her heart soared, but she doesn’t want to ensnare Ellie in her web anymore. She thinks Ellie will be find in America. She was always westernised.

One day Homa and Bahar dance joyfully to the music of an Iranian pop star.

Will this be the last joyful moment?

Chapter 32 1978 August

Abdol’s cousin is getting married and Homa convinces him to go to the wedding (they can’t afford to all go).

He has a lovely time – the food is fabulous.

He goes to the cinema with his cousin and the cousin’s new bride.

There is a fire (we later learn that it was deliberately lit). Abdol dies.

The protests increase – even though it wasn’t the Shah’s secret police.

If the revolution succeeds, what happens if what follows is worse?

Chapter 27 June 1965

It’s Ellie’s Wedding.

She has a beautiful white silk wedding dress.

Mehrdad doesn’t want to do the white handkerchief custom (proving Ellie is a virgin).

The reception is in the garden. Ellie’s mother has out done herself – there are twinkly lights, a band, lots of food and fireworks.

Ellie is sad. She misses both her father and Homa, in particular Homa, but she has done as requested and made no contact.

Chapter 28 1965-1970

Ellie is married. She’s not working, without Homa to push her she has lost interest and enthusiasm in a career. Besides when she has children, it will be find to be home.

Twice a week she goes to the beauty salon.

Children aren’t forthcoming. She buys presents for all the children of her friends.

Three miscarriages – her mother thinks it’s the evil eye.

Maybe it’s god’s plan, maybe it’s destiny.

Chapter 29 1977

Mehrdad has been offered a research position in New York – 2 years, a temporary post.

Two weeks before leaving, Ellie is in the Grand Bazaar buying presents to take with them. She runs into Homa and her daughter. It’s awkward, but Homa does describe her as an old friend before making a quick exit.

Ellie tells her to contact her if she needs anything – her mother will know how to contact her.

Chapter 24 November 1953

This chapter is from Homa’s point of view.

She is incandescently wild. She will not give them any information. She is quiestioned and refuses to answer. The man threatens her with a different man.

She’s questioned again the next day and still refuses to answer.

She thinks of her loved ones and tries to remember grace.

The scary man questions her and she still refuses. She tells him he is part of a sycophantic cult. He appears genuinely surprised and attracted to her.

As a rule they’re not violent to young women, but Homa is an exception. He makes sure the door is locked and turns out the light.

Chapter 25 December 1964

We’re back to Ellie’s point of view.

She has been trying for a year to see Homa and now she finally can.

She goes to Homa’s house. Homa has a baby! and a husband – Abdol.

She was raped in prison.

Released after six months when she was six months pregnant.

She makes it clear she never wants to see Ellie again. (I think it is also clear that she knows it was Ellie)

Chapter 26 December 1964

Homa’s point of view.

This is a harrowing chapter.

When you’re drowning and the world feels like it’s not meant for you, when the lack of sleep and appetite make you want to curl up and give up, when the demands of the baby are overwhelming and absoloutely crushing – how do you fake the person of a woman who is alright?

She is grateful to Abdol who asked her to marry him despite knowing what happened to her in prison. People still talk – they know the baby was conceived before the marriage.

True, in the very early hours and days of prison what fuels me is anger. But after what happens in that closed room with the door locked and the light out, after what happens as my screams fall against cement walls and my clothes are torn and my flesh bruised, I am made of grief. I now scratch the surface of my anger and peer beneath the skin of it and find only a well of sadness so deep there seems no way out.

She thinks about Ellie’s visit and how she wasn’t ready to talk about it, to think about it, or to heal.

The one thing that is keeping her going is her daughter

My child has no fault in how she was brought into being; the crime is not hers.

Chapter 21 November 1963

It’s the night of Niloo’s engagement party. Ellie has a green silk dress, but she is worried it is to juvenile. She drinks a glass of champagne (probably a bit too fast for a non-drinker). Discover that Homa was the first guest to arrive and is helping in the kitchen. Also Homa looks great in the dress Ellie gave her (a twinge of jealousy).

In the kitchen she sees Homa providing Mehrdad with a taste of something. Ellie runs away followed by Homa. They have a discussion argument.

It’s not enough that you came to my highschool, stole my friends, competed with me every step of the way? That you are a maniac at our university, obssessed with politics and grades? Now you have to flirt with my fiance too?

Homa is confused, thinks Ellie has been drinking, says she will go home and pretend the conversation never happened.

Mehrdad is also confused.

Ellie is feeling poorly and asks to lie down

Chapter 22 November 1953

Ellie is lying down in the Colonel’s study berating herself for her jealousy.

Her tantrums exhaust her

The Colonel comes in (a bit weird and creepy). Ellie decides to be mature and think the best (I’m sure this is a mistake).

He talks about the women of her generation and how fierce that are and how much he admires them. He asks about her friends. What are they studying? Who is the bravest?

He tells her that his younger sister is in a communist group.

She tells him Homa is the bravest.

[Colonel] “A brave law student is probably an organiser?”

Ellie tells him that Homa organised the recent student protest.

The next day Homa is picked up by the secret police, charged with trying to bring down the Kingdom.

Chapter 23 November 1953

Ellie meets Sousan in the park. Sousan can’t believe Ellie said anything to the Colonel.

Ellie thought she was being polite, chatting to a father-like figure.

Sousan reveals he is the secret police and that he doesn’t even have a sister. She can’t leave him because she will lose the children (divorce laws are biased against women).

Ellie realises she was the one who caused Homa to be arrested.

She never says Sousan again.